Patience is not my middle name!

Have you ever taken a look at what it really takes to be a parent? With 3 children, all at very different stages, I am taking a very hard look at what it means to be a parent and how to handle all of these little spirits that have been entrusted to me. So far I've come to the conclusion that everything you lack is what they need the most. And it causes you to stretch so much I think I will have permanent parenting stretch marks :)

If you know me, you know I am the most impatient person on the planet. When I see something that needs to be done, its done in an instant. I can not stand to wait in line at a store or good grief the DMV! Since really taking a look at my children and myself I have found that patience is the one thing they need from me the most. Now I'm not talking about patience to the point of letting them get away with things and become brats. I'm talking about not holding them to the same standard I hold myself, and expecting things that are absolutely unattainable to them and that is really hard for me. Its a constant battle to remind myself that they are 4,2, and just out of the oven. I can find myself saying," why don't you get it?" and " please just understand!" And in some things they do understand and they are just outright disobedient, in which cases they get disciplined. But for those times that they just don't understand or aren't capable of understanding yet I need more patience. 

I have a feeling today is going to be a patience testing day...As I am typing the boys are jumping from their dresser onto the floor and their beds. When I hear these sounds it immediately causes me to start breathing hard and I get instant anxiety. I guess because I know how I want them to behave in their room but thats not happening. Controlling spirit much?! Hey I'm human and I can freely admit I am having a moment. Anyways, I sat down a few minutes ago and just started talking to the Lord and I looked up Patience in the concordance. and went to Colossians 1:11. So I backed up started from verse 1. There is a place in there where Paul and Timothy are speaking life over the people in Colosse and they say, in Kacie terms: " Since we heard about you people we have been praying for you, so that you would have the Godly knowledge which produces wisdom. We pray that the Lord would strengthen you so that you will have great endurance and patience. I sat and really looked at those 2 words together. Endurance and patience. I've been praying that I would be a person of great endurance and discipline because I have none. And here it is! Along with Patience, which I surely lack. These words together have opened my eyes to see that if you lack endurance, the drive to really stick with something and see it through then you can not gain patience or the ability to withstand the delay in something! 

So today I speak ENDURANCE over everyone reading this blog. In Jesus name we would be able to endure everyone around us and their downfalls. I speak the peace that surpasses all of our worldly understanding.