Ready or Not

Here we are another year come and gone. Last year was a great year for us, especially me. God Showed me a lot, allowed me to be broken a lot to be rebuilt with new eyes to see things in new lights. Friends have come and gone, new schools have started for the kids, we have transitioned from baby mode to life with actual children doing child life things.  Pastor's wife life has set in and balancing ministry and family is presenting lots of challenges. I am sure in time that will be a blog all in itself. Lots of dreams have been dreamed and I'm waiting for the right time to fulfill them. Most of all this year has been filled with women, girls, moms, grandmothers. And I feel like that is the direction my life is going. I know for a fact that the Holy Spirit is putting me in more and more places to share the Love of the Lord in the lives of women from all walks of life. Quite scary if you ask the person that I am, but the spirit inside of me is becoming less afraid and more willing to be open and used. 

I keep saying over and over, "who am I?" Why would God see me as someone for women to trust, talk to and confide in? And I still have no idea most days. But what I do know is that in my own strength I am how I see myself. Most days a mom fail, a nagging wife, a too busy pastors wife to fit everyone in, an opinionated by stander but only to my husband and a failure as a friend to near and far. But the difference I have come to have in the last year is I am not to look at myself how I see me. I am to look at myself how God sees me. Someone who is growing daily in all areas of life. In Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and self Control. And this next year of life is to be another year to grow in the fruit of The Spirit, to teach and be taught, to love the ones who feel unlovable at times, to parent with my husband how God has ordained us to, to be the kind of wife my husband needs me to be.  

Ready or not the year has begun...