Wow has it been a while since I last wrote! Lots has been going on and life is taking some interesting turns. First and foremost I can say I am still in the gym and working out at home some too! This has been the longest stretch of me going to gym and watching what I eat, I will admit I should do better at that but I just love food! I love making it, buying it and now selling it! I'll get to the selling it part later. But I have been toying with the idea of buying a bikini for the summer and wearing it as motivation for the gym....well I did that last night and let me tell you it deff motivated me! I can honestly say it didn't look that bad which is a deff plus. I saw where my trouble spots still are and talked to Dave about what I can do to focus in on those areas. So I am heading in the right direction. I would like it to be faster but being a mom of 3 I can't get to the gym every day like I would like. So I'm still chipping away at this old bod!
I recently started a new adventure for myself. I am now a Tastefully Simple consultant. If you don't know what it is I will tell you! Its a company that created yummy foods that require 3 or fewer ingredients to any of the dips, batters, breads or drinks we have to offer. I have never been a person to want to go into strangers homes, sell them things and book more parties and sell more things. I have always had a very big issue with myself and how people see me. So I never had the confidence in myself to do something like this. Its really strange but since I had Olivia and turned 25 I have a whole new outlook on life. I see things like I have never seen them before. I want to get myself in shape for me, my husband and children so I can be around for them and also look nice for myself. Yes I am a stay at home mom but I want a business that I create, maintain and only I can understand and be good at. I didn't get to finish college or start a career that I could be really good at. So I figure this is the next best thing and I get to stay home with my children who need me.
Speaking of children who need me, We are going through some eye opening stuff with Noah and its breaking my heart. Noah has always been an active child. He has loved to move and talk since he was physically able to do so. Lately he has been out of control at home and at school. He can't sit and pay attention to pretty much anything, he always has to be moving some part of his body or making some sort of noise. And he has been particularly testy in the area of obedience these last couple of weeks. I have been praying and asking the Lord if its an obedience issue or development or diet. I have been at my end trying everything with him. Well I got called into meet with his preschool teacher yesterday and she confirmed something that has been in my head for a few months now. He could possibly have some sensory issues that need to be address with our pediatrician. He has not been able to participate with the other kids at what they call circle time and is missing out on learning and being on the same level as other kids. Circle time is when they sit down for an extended period of time and listen and interact, all while sitting. Noah can not do this on a level that he should be able to at his age. So his teacher suggested Dave and I keep Noah back a year and repeat this whole year of preschool again. As a mom, I immediately blame myself. As she was talking yesterday all I could hear in m head was...I failed him, I don't pay enough attention to him, I don't teach him anything at home, he's going to be behind all the friends he made at school and they could someday think he's stupid. As I'm writing this I just cry because its so hard to deal with the fact that your child is struggling with something you can't take away. My head has been spinning since I left that meeting and my heart weighs about 100lbs, I'm so torn on what to do. I know what I would like to happen is for him to wake up and be able to handle stimulation and transitions from play time to learning time but he just can't. So I have to do whats in the best interest for Noah and keep him back and have him repeat this year and see what comes of it. Its whats best for him and thats all I need to focus on. So from here we go to the drs in a couple weeks and talk to them about getting him evaluated at CDS to see if he has more of a sensory issue that needs to be dealt with through occupational therapy or if we can change things at home and help him that way. I am so thankful for the school that Noah is at because they really curve their curriculum around the student and really pay attention to areas that they are great in and not so great. And I know that if his teacher is saying something is off then I trust her completely. Its all just hard to handle.
So in closing I'm sure you can figure out life is taking us some pretty interesting places and we have no idea whats up the road next for us but we are taking it one day at a time and enjoying the ride, even if its painful and heart wrenching at times. Its our life and we love it!
