Because I want this blog to be 100% open and honest, most days my reaction isn't pleasant to all of these requests. I grumble, get overwhelmed and snap back. " I just got out of bed can I have 2 seconds to pee?!" And usually I am going to the bathroom with the little or big person making the request still asking on the other side of the door. Now that Olivia can talk, our almost 2 year old going on 20, she is getting a bit pushy as well. So that's 4 vs 1...crummy ratio.
Patience and grace are the 2 biggest things I lack. Because I am such a black and white person, when I see something off I have a very hard time extending grace. And when my patience gets tested, and as you can see that's quite often, I have a very hard time with my slow to anger reactions. Is there anyone else out there like this or am I the only one? I am admitting this because I am not some perfect pastors wife that thinks I can do no wrong. I am human before anything else, and just like you I have flaws. BIG ONES!
I am so thankful this morning that I have a sav·ior noun a person who saves, rescues, or delivers me every time I need Him. What if he acted and responded like I do? With my questions, requests, pleas and commands adding up to around a billion by now, how would I feel if he responded with, "give me a stinkin' second to think!" I am sure my face would be like that of my children's, disappointed and in some cases hurt by my reaction. Does anyone know what I am talking about?
I wrote another blog a while back on this subject,http://thevictoriousmother.blogspot.com/2011/02/patience-is-not-my-middle-name.html. And here I sit still struggling with it. I don't know if I will ever be as patient or grace filled as I would like to be but I do know I am working on it. Is there something you are working on that you aren't afraid to admit? I would love to get some comments either here, Facebook or Twitter but it will require you taking a look at your life. Why is it so hard for us to examine ourselves?
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